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PersephoneI fed her
and she cried
at every frozen sunrise
for 180 days.
With cracks in my heart
caught in my hair
I counted 180 more.
The BalloonShe hated him so much that she wanted to love him. She wanted to love him more than anything in her life. She wanted to wrap him up in her arms and promise to keep him forever.
But they tell her to leave him. "We know his type," they say. "The minute you begin to care about him, he leaves you forever and you'll be left to pick up the pieces."
She knows that they're right. She holds him by a string while he's miles above her. She loathes him, but her heart races every time she thinks of letting go of the string. She closes her eyes and the minute she opens them, she has to frantically reach for him.
Purple shadows grow beneath her eyes and blisters form where she has him tied at her wrist.
"Let him go," they whisper as they try to loosen him from her arm.
She shuffles, sleepy-eyed through the park, dragging him along behind her. A woman runs up behind her and points to the string.
"He is absolutely lovely. You're very lucky to have him miss," the woman says.
She begins to remove him fro
The Angelic AnachronismMy turn-of-the-century French Boy
An anachronism, lost on his way home.
Walks by the stone angels,
Growing out of the ground.
He spoke with the tip of his hat
And French love letters
Waiting on my doorstep
I saved them,
Unanswered, and unopened
In an old hat-box
The frivolous-French boy
Traded his pea-coat for a business suit
And his eloquence for a profit
Sometimes he still walks by the angels
And wonders if they are sprouting,
ImpressionableYou left impressions in her skin and they sank straight down to her heart. You always told her that she was impressionable, but she never took it quite so literally.
She was holding memories so tightly that her hands started to burn. Each day a layer of skin would char and crumble. She swept the ash off and carried on.
Sometimes when she felt lonely, she would take old blankets and wrap herself in them. They smelled like the people who used them before her. They have absorbed their dreams, their feelings, their hearts. She liked to hear other peoples' dreams because she never had one herself.
She never felt quite at home. She worried about getting caught in a gust of wind and tossed down in a field somewhere, but secretly, she hoped for it.
She missed you. She wouldn't admit it, but I could see it in her face and hear it in her words.
She lost her right shoe one night. She walked a half mile in the rain without it and arrived at the front door with a big smile on her face. Sometimes I
The Man in the Coffee ShopThe man who works at the coffee shop looks like you. I noticed this some time ago and have since frequented the place. He recognizes me now. He smiles at me when I come in. His smile even looks like yours. He doesn't say hey though- you always said hey.
I still work at the library even though you're not there.
Sometimes I look over to your desk and expect to see you typing at your computer, but someone else is there now. It's not you.
Sometimes someone will come in who looks like you. Maybe he will have the same hair, same stature, same profile, same laugh, same voice. It's never been you.
Sometimes I drive myself crazy. I pull at my hair and scream 'till my lungs burst. I scream for and at you. I ask how you could have left me here.
Sometimes I allow myself to believe that I will see you again. By chance we will run into each other in a Wal-Mart far away.
I go to the coffee shop on Tuesday afternoons. I order a small chai tea with milk.
Sometimes the man is working at th
FFM XXIXShe's locked herself in her own absurdities. She traces silver-white raised skin over her shoulders and hips, wallowing in her own disgusting self-pity. At night, she cries over people who have been crafted from twenty-six shapes arranged in clever ways. Then she arranges the shapes some more, and pulls her hair because it will never be the same.
She looks for the people she has pushed away and cries when she can't find them. Standing on her toes, she meets the goals she has set for herself. She pats herself on her back for a job well done without bothering to try jumping.
Watching the world from the window, she looks at buildings, and grass, and trees, and people. They wander around the streets, going nowhere but to and fro.
Disgusting. She thinks.
I'm Just Waiting for the RainHe keeps his umbrella close, but never opened. Storm clouds roll in and out of his life, but they never stop to even wet the ground.
He wakes up every morning at 6:15, stays in bed for another five minutes, and takes a shower that lasts eight and a half minutes. He eats two slices of buttered toast and a small tumbler of orange juice. He dresses himself in a blue button-down with a striped tie and shines his shoes so that he can see his face. If it's cold out, he wears his black trench coat and if it isn't, he just wears his sport coat. He carries his briefcase every day, along with his umbrella. He can't forget his umbrella. The train leaves at 7:00 and he is at the station by 6:55. He hasn't missed a day of work in eight years.
His career isn't exactly what he hoped it would have been. If he were to think back on it, he would realize that it isn't even close. Thankfully, he never does.
At 7:45 he goes for his morning coffee runblack with two sugars. Provided the line isn't too
FFM XIV"Where is she?" he asked at the front desk of the hospital.
The receptionist looked up, "Good afternoon doctor. She's recovering in room 312, though I would wait if you want to see her, she is probably asleep right now."
The doctor's face turned white, "So she did it?"
"Yes sir, the procedure was successful."
He nodded at the receptionist as he turned down the corridor. "Yes, thank you."
"It was my pleasure, sir," she said.
"Why do we say that?" he asked, spinning around.
"'It was my pleasure.' Why do we say that? We haven't felt pleasure in many years."
"I suppose it's just an old habit. I haven't given much thought to it really."
"Right," he said heading towards room 312.
The door was opened and the lights were all off when the doctor entered the room. He
walked over to her and looked down on her sleeping face. She looked different, he couldn't quite put his finger on what it was though.
"Here, I will let in some sun. You always liked natural light," he said drawing the du
Poems From Places IISomeone built the hallowed halls of this building,
And wrote the sacred writing that lines the walls.
But we do not see them among those who gather here.
We fly with the pigeons through the belfry,
And tumble down amongst the grass and leaves.
The others whisper and gawk in disgust
While they couple between the columns.
We climb to the highest of highs,
But fear that we will fall to the deepest despairs.
You tell me that it could be dangerous to think
But I can already see the words forming in ink.
The Song of the WolfThe wolf's song drifts on the wing of the wind
It calls to the moon
Asking it why does it hide behind the cotton clouds
The wolf's song is carried by memories
It calls to the lost
Asking them why have they gone
The wolf song is held in the bones
It calls to the spirits
Thanking them for their life
The wolf's song is held by hearts
It calls to us
Asking us why we have left the wild
The wolf's song burns in my heart
It calls me home
Asking me why I do not come to them
The wolf's song drifts on the wing of the wind
It calls to the moon
Asking it why does it hide behind the cotton clouds
Stitches, Cinders, and StrifeI lost you in a field
of poison poppies,
and sleep-inducing stems.
I smoked a cigarette
I did not forget.
I never forget.
I stood at the kitchen sink
watching the mourning birds chirp,
scream for help.
My lipstick was red,
my dress black,
my feet bare.
You could not see the scars.
You did not want to see the scars.
I looked for photos in the attic,
evidence of your hate or love or selfishness,
but you had burned them all,
set a fire to my pleasant memories
with your violations.
But why, honey, would you slaughter the lamb,
shatter my ribs,
if your own wrists
were pleading to be slit?
is ladies sipping vodka out of teacups
wearing lace-trimmed gloves and smiling.
are torn paper hearts and scribbled notes,
forgotten Valentines and tattered poems.
is a child's word, in reality gambled for
sex or love and happiness or lust.
are graffiti on the insides of the walls we have
constructed to protect ourselves from the world.
is tattooed on our wrists and hips, so that we
may not forget its charity, yet no one remembers.
are always wasted on the stars that will
not grant them. even so, we try in vain.
is butterfly kisses and cigarette smoke,
so why has it become synonyms with sex?
just mei tripped on coincidence
and hit my head on reality.
it put me in a coma for a few days
because i didn't know what to do.
i'm out now, but i'm left scarred,
charred, bruised and beaten down.
the doctors told my parents
i had been diagnosed with insecurity.
they gave me medicine
that made me cough up fewer excuses
and be more self-conscious.
my remaining symptoms include indecision,
and writing a lot.
but my rhyme has begun to disintegrate,
my rhythm has become fractured.
words elude me shamelessly,
and the ones that stay have a grinding quality
that makes me want to cover my ears and scream.
it's hard to be a poet when
you're trying to get better.
poetry is easiest when there are blood drops on the paper,
ink stains in the sheets,
tears smearing the eye makeup
we use to make ourselves look scarier, more mysterious,
i am weak and you used to make me strong
but we both go through love like a pack of cigarettes.
i try to coddle boyfriends like they will break if i mi
dear stranger,i can't tell you my story
with SAT vocabulary
and gripping metaphor.
i write in the vernacular,
as if i'm mute
and just walked up to you on the street,
and began writing on your arms.
the first word i would write would be LOVE,
and then maybe FUCK.
then i would introduce my name
and begin to tell you:
sometimes in the mornings
i'll get up and stretch
and my neck will hurt,
because i spent so much time the night before
looking up at the stars.
and sometimes in the evenings
i'll lie down and begin to slumber
but i won't be able to sleep,
because my cheeks will be hot with thoughts
of the pretty boy who smokes the lies
and exhales the truths.
someday, i would like to
stand up and scrape the sky with my fingernails,
crack its glassy surface
so that all the stars come pouring down.
someday, i would like to
reach up and catch a falling dream,
no matter how it burns my hands
so that i could prove i am worth their hope.
someday, i would like to be good enough.
i am not alone;
Everyone has a PainEveryone has a pain to share,
to hold and to confront.
Pain is something I must
suffer all alone.
My pain is being alone in
Who knows how I will face
the things that hide in
The pains I carry are death,
loneliness and destruction.
A lone monster like me should
not live, I hear the screams of
fright at night.
Everything I touch dies, everything
I have is dead, everything in me is
It eats my heart and devours my soul
the cuts that cover me let that pain
bleed out on their own.
My claws are tainted with my own doings
my fangs colored red smeered with my
The darkness calls with its loving voice
It says my name, it carries me away.
The trail of blood i leave behind me
is also the trail of regret and misery.
I am cursed to be alive and prevented
to never die.
My pain is what drives me insane.
My pain is what makes me feel all the same.
butterfly song[poetry is not a science,
is not commanding letters into line to salute and stand down,
poetry is the vandalism of the lost,
graffiti on the values of society,
[poetry is not a test,
is not looking up pretty words in the dictionary
to insert into your stanzas, a doctor's shot.]
poetry is love of the hopeful,
dreams risen from the ashes of hate and disappointment,
[poetry is not a race,
is not swapping problems,
comparing whose pig is fattest at the slaughterhouse.]
poetry is the song of the fractured butterfly,
broken fingers playing a melody of ink,
do not love me?my dear good sir,
do not think of me
as your equal.
treat me like a rag doll,
paint bruises on my arms
and sew me up with stitches.
do not love me,
do not love me.
cringe at any sight
Lake PlacidWhere were you when my sky cracked?
When the thunder and wind tore my hair at the roots
When the trees snapped and the windows gave in
And emptiness came down to reshape my world?
It's these small moments with huge consequences
like a mouse that chewed the electric circuit
like a moth teeters near the edge of a flame.
the day we parted was like an earthquake
tearing apart tree roots and riverbeds.
My life was upturned; upstaged really,
by the placidness of your addiction.
My way to hell was through you,
and the lessons you never intended to teach.
You turned survival tactics into goddamn song:
Keep your thumb in when fighting.
Make eye contact while lying.
Smile when it hurts, baby, because life's a fucking migraine.
Like a dog learns to cower at the rolled up Sunday Times,
you left me crippled.
It wasn't until I fell into the volcano did I realize
how you held me captive.
I have more to give than angry glances and raised fists.
I have more to
A Bloody, Stupid Miracle The day we’d cured the human condition was the day I put a bullet through my head and didn’t die. It was also the day I realized how scared I actually was of death, and after hours of muscle ache from holding that gauze against my open skull, after the wound closed and everything went back to normal, I had myself a good old-fashioned brainstorm. How ironic.
But when summer came, everything had fallen to shit. The air scorched my skin and parched my tongue every time I took a breath. The sun glared down on a rapidly-collapsing world, full of the undying bastard children of cruelty and misfortune. What was one to do when their cells regenerated faster than they decomposed?
My feet hit the pavement, now littered with jagged bits of glass to snap at my toes, thoroughly baked by the blazing ball of bitter disdain high overhead. Today was worse than yesterday. Though I’d often wondered the purpose of it anymore, I
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